Triggers (day 37)

Key Stats: Normal BG's, 4 shakes 1 bar, no off eating. No exercise today again.

First off about the no exercise, I woke up feeling like crap today. I think the stomach bug that has been going around hit me. Thankfully it did not last long, and I am on the mend.

A new dairy queen is open by my house. I remember seeing it being built before I was thinking about lossing weight. I thought it was awesome that one was opening near by. Here are a list of things I like at diary queen.
1.) Blizzards
2.) Ice Cream cake
3.) Those crappy little hotdogs they sell
4.) The super crispy french fries
5.) Ice cream cake
6.) Orange Julius stuff
7.) Ice cream cake

So when I saw it was open I thought how nice it will be to be able to get blizzards on date night, and get ice cream cake for my birthday. Which made me think about how I won't be having ice cream cake, or any cake on my birthday. And it also occured to me that date night for me became more about the treat we were going to have than it was about a nice night together with my wife. That makes me sad. We started our date night to make sure we took time to be together, and took time to just be a couple rather than parents. I let my food issue take over what it was suppose to be, and let it become about food and treats. With my travel schedule, and being devoted to writing this blog and exercising we really have not taken time to have a good date night in awhile. I am going to make a point of having a great date night the next time we can. Since I won't be spending money on food for the date night maybe we can afford a baby sitter to go see a movie. The movie will be much cheaper since I won't be getting pretzel bites with cheese, and a HUGE soda and eating half of my wife's popcorn. After I finish writing this blog I am going to go over kiss my wife and apologize  she deserves better than what I have been giving her. I should have never let food or treats be the driver in our time together. It is a good thing I am working on getting healthy, I deserve it, my son deserves it, and my wife deserves it. I can do this.

-Jon